I am sitting in bed with half of myself on the news and the other half thinking about posting something about myself and continue my story that I am sharing in little pieces in an impossible timeline.

Well, I was still in England in the Underground waiting for that “free” Phone I told you about, the one where the line was sooo long that I find it impossible that no one working for the phone company would not notice and report.

We were all young and broke and this was a miracle to keep us connected with our families all over the World.

Mine happened to be in Italy but, we were from all corners, many Countries.

I think I mentioned early in the Blog, LOL I am getting old and a bit on the forgetting side which is not surprising at all. I will tell you about that another time.

Well, as I was waiting for the phone wayyyy behind the line on my only day off at the new job I found after the incident at the boarding house, the girl ahead of me spoke to me in broken English with an unmistakable accent, MINE LOL.

I said hello in Italian and that was the beginning of a friendship that lasted 57 years until last year when I told her that she had been hurting me with her words too many years and that was it for her. I did pray for God’s help if she was meant to be in  my life or not and, I had my sweet answer “no more Loredana”

That was the best thing that happened to me in a very long long time. I put up with her meanness way too long trying in vain to witness about Jesus and the FACT that no one goes to the Father unless he goes through  Jesus Christ the Son, First.

In my EX-friend of a lifetime or 2, everyone “nice,” would go to Heaven.

I prayed and tried to show her Scriptures but the Bible meant nothing to her. She is  Catholic that loves to go to Church every Sunday and I am a born Again  Christian Woman, a Child of God that misses Church and does not feel guilty about it, but, I do owe her something big.

I confessed to her, the First person  I did that I had been sexually molested and whom by.

2 years later she broke the news to my family and my fear of being beaten because I was pregnant by a family friend, was put to rest in that respect.

After London, I became promiscuous and could not say no to men.

The man I slept with had realized that about me so, I was who I became, a very bad girl.

I was only 17 and pregnant.

It was one of the saddest times in my life.

When my parents knew about the pregnancy I was told to abort the baby. I did try not to go through with the abortion but the pressure was too much for me with no one that wanted to help me. I was 17 and my life was getting worse than ever. Sinning had become common but not wanted and my flesh did fight a war I knew nothing about.

No one talked to me about Jesus not even in the orphanage just sin and punishment there!

My parents took me to church Christmas and Easter plus my first communion at 8 years old and at 10 my Confirmation, all for my mamma benefit that believed but did not share. Another story to tell there.

Well, I was packed and sent to my aunt and uncle’s home in Pavia Italy where I was supposed to be exiled until my 18th Birthday. Before that, my other aunt, another one of my mother’s sisters, took me to a private doctor. Abortion was illegal then in Italy in 1972.

The physical pain on top of the emotional and the guilt was terrible. My parents did NOT pay for a shot so, the nurse stuck a clean rag in my mouth and I screamed silently as my aunt held my hand and my baby was ripped apart. NO MORE TONIGHT 


Thank you for reading this,

hope you forgive me and I thank God for forgiving me  for that and for many more sins.

  • English Standard Version

    nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Leadership Insight from the Maxwell Bible, Day 1

Today’s reading is drawn from 1 Kings 10:1-9.

Play to Your Strength: The 70-20-5 Principle

Great leaders play to their strength. They don’t spend vast amounts of time attempting to be a jack-of-all-trades. Instead, they deepen their ability to do what they do best, until they do it as well as anyone.

Solomon certainly lived by this principle. God made him the wisest and richest king of his day (1 Kin. 3:12, 13). Other monarchs heard of his wisdom and wealth and eagerly sought an audience with him. From all over the known world, powerful rulers from distant lands made the long trek to Israel to catch a glimpse of this young phenom. Solomon provided rich counsel and gifts to others, and quickly became known for his breadth of mind and depth of insight.

How did Solomon gain such fame? He focused on what he did best. Leaders would be wise to follow a similar pattern, called the 70-25-5 principle:

  • Give 70 percent of your time to your areas of strength.
  • Give 25 percent of your time to the areas you want to improve.
  • Give 5 percent of your time to the areas of your weakness.

The Lessons of Babylon, Day 1

Today’s reading is drawn from Daniel 1:11–17 (NIV).

In the Bible, Daniel 1 tells the story of the Israelites: Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (popularly known as “the Hebrew Boys”). Given internships in the kingdom of Babylon, these young men were fit, healthy, handsome, and quick studies. They were the best of what Israel had to offer. But as they began to serve in Babylon, they were met with a serious conflict: The king had assigned them a diet that did not align with their Hebrew beliefs.

As foreigners, they felt confident they could do the job at hand, yet they had no idea if Babylon’s rules could be adapted to fit their faith. Should they compromise what they believed in to fit into their new careers or stand firm on their convictions and risk not only conflict but potential death?

They decided to make a very savvy move. Rather than recuse themselves from doing the job, they asked if they could do it differently. Daniel and the Hebrew Boys asked their supervisor if they could eat their own diet (consisting of vegetables and water). However, the supervisor worried that if he granted their request, he would lose his job, and refused. Undeterred, they then asked the guard who managed them daily. They said, “If you give us a chance to eat differently for ten days, we will prove that we can fulfill the requirements of our job. If we can’t, we will suffer the consequences.” The guard agreed.

Ten days later, the Hebrew Boys were better nourished and healthier than any of the other interns, so the guard allowed them to continue on with their diet. Ultimately, when it was time for them to be brought before the king, they were found to be ten times healthier and better at their jobs than all their peers.

The takeaway is simple yet profound: They learned in Babylon how to be successful in a secular environment by applying their spirituality in a way that enhanced their success. The Hebrew Boys learned how to succeed while at work in Babylon, not in the synagogue. Some of the lessons they learned:

  • Don’t be afraid of “no.” “No” sets you up for the right “yes.”
  • Passion persuades.
  • Being different is a divine asset.
  • Risk-averse is success-averse.
  • People will either view you as a threat or an asset to their job security.
  • Results matter. The bottom line counts.
  • Persistence is essential.
  • Sacrifice is your salvation.
  • God will show up on the job He’s placed you in, but only if you put Him to the test.
  • Adhering to your spiritual beliefs powers your secular ascent.
    The story of the Hebrew Boys as told throughout the book of Daniel inspired me. It helped me find the courage to pursue a career in Hollywood while adhering to my Christian beliefs. Like the Hebrew Boys, it doesn’t matter if you’re in Hollywood or a completely different profession—these principles will transform your life by empowering you with truth, clarity, and strategy you can use to leap forward into the fullness of your calling.

Anna, A Faithful Prophetess,

Today’s reading is taken from Luke 2:36-38.

Anna, the daughter of Penuel, was eighty-four years of age and long widowed. Apparently, she was a member of the resident staff at the temple in Jerusalem, devoting herself to continual service in the temple. The text does not indicate why she was called a “prophet.” Her unnamed husband might have been a prophet, or perhaps she herself had spent time praising and bearing testimony or even foretelling future events under divine inspiration. In simplest terms, she obviously was a woman through whom God spoke. As a descendant of the tribe of Asher, Anna looked for the Messiah as the prophets Isaiah (Isa 9:6) and Micah (Mic 5:2) had foretold.

When Mary and Joseph brought the baby Jesus to the temple to present him to the Lord approximately a month after his birth, they offered their sacrifices according to ancient law. He had been circumcised on the eighth day, probably in Bethlehem. Now the days of Mary’s purification were completed (see Lev 12:4). As they were in the temple, a devout man, Simeon, was moved by the Holy Spirit to be present and to hold the Infant in his arms.

Anna watched as Simeon prayed, knowing in her heart that the Messiah had come. Luke’s description of this woman helps the reader to understand the respect and veneration that she commanded. A lifetime of prayer and fasting made her comments worth reporting. She, a recognized prophetess, confirmed God’s gift of redemption and her words resonated with all who looked for salvation (Lk 2:38).

Anna personified in her day those who “serve the living and true God, and . . . wait for his Son from heaven” (1Th 1:9–10). She is a model for us; like her, women are to “live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for that blessed hope—the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ” (Titus 2:12–13).

What to Remember When You Feel God Is Not Listening, Day 1

Habit: Prayer

Today’s reading is drawn from Habakkuk 1:2 and 1 Peter 1:6-7.

“How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?” (Habakkuk 1:2).

Have you ever felt, like Habakkuk, that your cries to God are falling on deaf ears?

Does God seem distant? Do you feel he’s abandoned you in your time of need? What should we think and how should we react when God seems distant?

Here are four things to remember when enduring God’s silence:

1. You’re not alone — Giants of the faith, from Martin Luther to C. S. Lewis, have written about the spiritual crises they’ve endured after seeking God’s comfort and feeling his absence. And in the Bible we find kings, from David to Jesus, feeling similarly forsaken by the Father (see Psalm 22:1 and Matthew 27:46). We can take comfort in knowing that we’re not the only ones who have gone through such experiences and that the silence is not necessarily a reflection on the quality of our faith or our relationship with God.

2. It’s temporary —Feelings of distance from God are a temporary trial. As Peter said, “In all this, you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials” (1 Peter 1:6).

3. It’s for a reason —Peter also says trials come so they can prove the genuineness of our faith (see 1 Peter 1:7). God puts us through trials to test and strengthen our faith and our reliance on his mercy. As John MacArthur says:

“As one of God’s children, you are promised His presence, though for now, you feel alone and without help. Rest in knowing God your Father has good reasons for bringing you into your trial. He is committed to making you holy, even if it means taking away your happiness for a time.”*

4. You’re being heard — Even when God seems to be a million miles away he is always closer than our breath. He hears you, so don’t be afraid to be bold and ask, like Habakkuk, why your cries are going unanswered. Keep praying and know God’s silence won’t last forever.

PRACTICAL TAKEAWAY: Our suffering under God’s silence has a purpose and can be used to help us grow in faith and obedience.

* John MacArthur, “I feel abandoned in my trial. Why does God seem so distant when I need Him most?” Grace to You, accessed January 13, 2015, http://www.gty.org/resources/questions/QA155/I-feel-abandoned-in-my-trial-Why-does-God-seem-so-distant-when-I-need-Him-most.

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God’s Justice and Grace, Day 1

Today’s reading is drawn from Deuteronomy 19:15-21 and Psalm 103:8.

The conflict for many Christians is whether God is loving and caring, or just and fiery. The truth is . . . God is both!

Here is an utterly mind-boggling and potentially soul-stirring concept of God that has perplexed humanity since we took our first breaths: God is both just and generous. God can both keep us on our end of the deal and forgive us when we fall short. God holds in one hand the power to wipe out an angry mob and on the other hand the power to give away the keys to the kingdom.

How often have I missed the goodness and generosity of God because of my distance and preconceived assumptions? Clues to God’s great generosity abound. They surround my life in seen and unseen ways. And yet somehow, I so often miss them.

 There is the moon at 1:00 a.m., bright and proud and my quiet company on sleepless nights . . . There are things like sex and sleep and food (not always in that order), all of which could be numbingly utilitarian, but God in his generosity created them to be deeply pleasurable. In a world where there is the undeniable presence of AIDS, death, heartbreak, pain, and longing, there is also love, laughter, forgiveness, and friends who light up when they see you. And while I wrestle with understanding God’s role in the former, I should not be confused about God’s presence in the latter.

This is the moral of our story, that in a world filled with pain and fear and confusion, there is a God who is more good, more generous, and more full of grace than we could possibly imagine. And as wildly as he offers himself to us, so should we offer ourselves to him, no longer living in the risk-free distance of all our assumptions, but up close and personal, so we can see just how good and generous this King truly is.


Do you find yourself limiting God? Do you tend to overemphasize one of his character qualities over another? God is multifaceted in the way he relates to and interacts with us.



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