My best friend also deals with a similar illness!
Since I have been diagnosed with Lupus I seem to always have this battle inside of my own mind with not being able to be who I once was. I have a hard time accepting the transition of who I was to who I am now. I fight not being able to go and do all that I want, with all that I have in me, and it’s an exhausting fight.
Often times I end up hurting myself because I still have a lot of things that I want to do but there are more things that I can’t do. I have an ongoing battle in my mind and I often feel like I am not the person I was anymore. I feel guilty when I miss out on things. I feel guilty when I have to say I can’t go or I can’t do what people want me to…
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April worked part-time at an on-site gig with people she liked, but she didn’t dig every part of the job. She had managed to pinpoint exactly the problem: her clients had insisted on using old-school techniques but expected better results than she could possibly deliver with them.
After a year, April knew she had to make a radical shift or quit. She felt her job was constantly in jeopardy which drained her as much the mindless tasks she was required to accomplish. With nothing to lose, she met with a managing head and pitched parallel avenues of work that could lead to similar results. With permission granted, she moved forward, full steam ahead.
April educated herself about various marketing tools, and began sharing her knowledge with colleagues and friends and watched their businesses bloom. She took courses and gained certifications that she could use in her current job and parlay…
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I am trying to write a few words as the puppy keeps licking my hand.
I am still thinking about last night conversation one of a few I had with Jill my best friend, no matter what!
I am so grateful to the Lord for bringing her back for as long as HE grants in my life.
I have always tried to take care of her in our adventures past together.
Unfortunately she “vanishes” for years at the time because of her mental illness and not always be on the Meds, I will ask her, but I think there are times she does not take them as she should.
I did try to go off my meds with terrible results but God tells me not to do it again and if I speak with her and mention this, she might take a second look at her life and to Please the Lord, she might, I say might do that. (take her medications)
Also, I am sorry I am not trying to be overdramatic but she is also physically ill.
If I feel sorry for myself at times I only have to think about her and everything is redimensioned.
I Pray to The Lord now to bless this visit, especially for her.
We will love our time together, always have but, I need to remember to stay focus on God’s Spirit for a “visit” from Him to make this the most special time together EVER
She is as the little sister I never had and, Monday after almost 7 years I will see her
This is huge because this means at least she is feeling somehow better and I pray it will be for a long long term this time around.
This is the longest time we had not spoke but once when she was in a hospital in Arizona.
she lives in Virginia. Long long story.
I am writing it all down and pray to be able to put in words what friendship is all about for me.