A bit Of My History

After I married, things did not get better between my husband and I. He had ruff sex with me and never a loving word. I am so ashamed to this day that I did everything I could to lose this unloved baby but did not have another abortion. In my mental state my pregnancy was hard and sad for the most part, I truly loved my child but could not share tender moments in my marriage about this beautiful thing that was happening to me. A CHILD, MY CHILD After the abortions and my sins God still blessed me… I understand my daughter loneliness when her husband was at sea for 6 months while she was pregnant plus, I had this cold husband that did not help me at all emotionally as well. I loved my baby more than I understood then. OMG, what a beautiful thing be able to see, more than, then,  on in life after Jesus makes all clear. Difficult life but worth being alive because Of Salvation.

We had many barbeques and they all came to them mainly not to be proudful because people loved me. Still, amazed of some people hearts.

Loving me is not easy for many people. I am doing better not after I realized God’s love is so very big. Agape, real, true, deep, forever and more.

When I lived then with my mental illnesses that became worse s time went by and life harder. I was just walking without any idea I was, by Faith alone.

Wow, how other dark the days after I came to America for many years. I decided to come to America and raise my child away from my abuser, just in case. I left a great Job as a Supervisor in the Communication office that had many other duties. besides making calls also by Satellite and for the employees of the small base in La Maddalena Sardinia.

I was in Italy before marrying then after marrying when I found out that my husband was having an affair I had my job back then the promotion later. I left a life where I still did not realize I was hurting so very bad to start a new harder road. Wow, God saved me in many ways and times,

Later,

Pat.

51 thoughts on “A bit Of My History

    1. Thank you. It was also bad, When I was 4 and 5 years old the nuns used to tie me down to a big table because I was too vivacious. God locked lots in until H started the healing process I am still in part undergoing. God LOVES me.

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  1. Alleluia

    To God be the Glory

    Since being delivered past 15 months

    i have heard from saints more mature than me… many saints have endured “church hurt”

    may saints encourage, edify and comfort each other as His Body, His Bride, His Church, His Temple walk after Him

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      1. Thank you, and I understand your concern for making sure that our blogs do not become boring. I spent a week working on this one. Videos help to make my blogs attract people, but I have to search for them.

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        1. Teaching videos and music videos, all of which must be Christian based. I also like country music, and easy listening. I also like music of the 50s – 80s. A lot of the videos that I select for my posts are ones that are almost divinely inspired, as to the fact that many of them “just appear.,” out of nowhere.

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        2. Dear, tell me please then I leave you alone if this songs is Transfiguration or not because if it is I know how to beat the site,youtube. I will bother you no more for a while, just let me know please I will send u one more chat with the video,

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        3. Also, videos that are attention grabbing are the ones that probably are the most successful in drawing people to view my post. That is the answer that I should have started off with.

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