TOBY AND I ARE FINALLY COMMUNICATING AND BY THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT AND HIS LOVE FOR ME, HAS BEEN OVER A EAR TOBY STOPPED WHAT HE WAS DOING.
I KNOW IT BECAUSE WHEN HE DID, I KNEW IT AND WE ARE CLOSER TO EACH OTHER THEN EVER BEFORE. WE FIGHT AT TIMES ABOUT OTHER THINGS AND WHEN MY BIPOLAR SIDE TAKES OVER THE FIGHT BECOMES VERY crazy, lol
I M FINALLY AT PEACE.
I WANT TO THANK ALL THE FRIENDS HERE THAT PRAYED FOR US, THANK YOU.
I don’t know why but I have the” gift” of discernment for many years now.
Some of you might think that a man can watch pornography for a long time and be OK with his wife.
Many years ago, Toby started to watch porn, long story but the Holy Spirit always told me and even with his lies, the truth came out.
I thought about divorce all day today but, after reading my first devotional today that I post, God told me how sick my husband is. I Decided with “conditions” not to leave him yet.
He promised to go to Christian therapy, Christian CR and small groups about sexual integrity. He needs me now, also, I will not sleep with him…
I hut so much every time I find out. This is the 6 times he does and gets caught.
We started lately to find some happiness and he restated the porn before then after we started to do better in my marriage, he listens to the enemy. I know I am Not making any sense, I am still and will hurting very much. So, no sleep together, therapy and mainly him to, have a better relationship with God, might save our marriage. I know he loves me but this sick thing that the enemy brings is stronger then his can resist. Now he has a phone without internet and I have a password for his computer. He wants to get better and God wants me to keep him at least for now. I have such pain, like a knife in my heart and pray I will be able to forgive him completely.
I WANT TO THANK ALL THAT PRAYED FOR ME AND ASK YOU TO KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYER BECAUSE I KNOW THAT PRAYERS SAID WITH THE HEART ARE HEARD FROM GOD, OUR FATHER. I would not be a good wife if I did not help him again but now ith as I said, Conditions he didn’t have before.
I leave you with just a small thing that means a lot, love is kind BELIEVE ALL THINGS FORGIVES all things.,