My Dear BLOGGER Friends, About my marriage…Please read and pray for me, PLEASE ( UPDATE)






I don’t know why but I have the” gift” of discernment for many years now.

Some of you might think that a man can watch pornography for a long time and be OK with his wife.

Many years ago, Toby started to watch porn, long story but the Holy Spirit always told me and even with his lies, the truth came out.

I thought about divorce all day today but, after reading my first devotional today that I  post, God told me how sick my husband is. I Decided with “conditions” not to leave him yet.

He promised to go to Christian therapy, Christian CR and small groups about sexual integrity. He needs me now, also, I will not sleep with him…

I hut so much every time I find out. This is the 6 times he does and gets caught.

We started lately to find some happiness and he restated the porn before then after we started to do better in my marriage, he listens to the enemy. I know I am Not making any sense, I am still and will hurting very much. So, no sleep together, therapy and mainly him to, have a better relationship with God, might save our marriage. I know he loves me but this sick thing that the enemy brings is stronger then his can resist. Now he has a phone without internet and I have a password for his computer. He wants to get better and God wants me to keep him at least for now. I have such pain, like a knife in my heart and pray I will be able to forgive him completely.

I WANT TO THANK ALL THAT PRAYED FOR ME AND ASK YOU TO KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYER BECAUSE I KNOW THAT PRAYERS SAID WITH THE HEART ARE  HEARD FROM GOD, OUR FATHER. I would not be a good wife if I did not help him again but now ith as I said, Conditions he didn’t have before.

I leave you with just a small thing that means a lot, love is kind BELIEVE ALL THINGS FORGIVES all things.,



16 thoughts on “My Dear BLOGGER Friends, About my marriage…Please read and pray for me, PLEASE ( UPDATE)

  1. Hi I will keep you guys in my prayers remember God is in this knows about it in control of it and God is Sovereign. Can I share a post I did a while back?

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      1. Your welcome here is what I said it’s long. Hello to all my Born Again Brothers and Sisters in Christ I am back and this post is for those going through hardship, a fiery trail, or loss we all have had these happen in 2018 even me but the difference this post is for those who are saved we have God on our side take heart and know God is still on His Throne, and in  control of whatever is going on in your life see Isaiah 6:1. Check this out about trials.

        Why he was inspired to write this letter 

        He identifies himself as an apostle of Christ 

        It’s a follow up letter to encourage Corinth

        One of his most personal letters 

        What those fiery trials produce in our lives 

        Peace with the Lord 2 Corinthians verses 1-2

        Appreciation for the grace of God 

        Paul was a recipient of the grace of God 

        Comfort from the Lord verses 3-4

        Soothing compassion Strengthening help

        Ministering to others the comfort I received 

        We can weep with them but not relate to them 

        Psalm 27:13-14

        A question to consider as it relates to trials  could the purpose of the trial be that God desires to comfort me in ways He can so I too can comfort others that He puts in my path

        Suffering for Christ is for God”s glory and my betterment 

        Suffering in trials is a answer to dangerous prayers 

        God can’t bless us and use us until He first breaks us and He breaks us so that we can be used of Him

        The breaking always always always precedes the blessing it cannot be the other way around 

        The most dangerous Christian is a unbroken Christian 

        Suffering causes me to seek the Lord 

        God will first prepare us for that which He prepares for us 

        It’s not what have they done to you is what is God doing and going to do in and through you by way of what they did to you 

        The Lord may not get you out of it but He will absolutely see you through it

        Reliance upon the Lord 

        What made Paul despair of life

        2 Corinthians 11:23-28

        God will allow trials to accomplish something 

        Trials caused Paul to rely solely on the Lord 

        One of the main reasons for trials 

        Gideon is one of the best examples of this 

        Gideon argues with God about his calling 

        Judges 6

        God removes 31,700 men from his army

        Judges 7:1-2

        They had no choice but to rely only on the Lord 

        1 Peter 1:6-7

        Endurance through it 

        Deliverance from it

        God delivers past present and future 

        A young David is one of the best examples 

        1 Samuel 17:31-37

        This is the basis for God”s deliverance 

        Don’t doubt in the dark what He showed you in the light

        Psalm 34:19

        Prayer to the Lord 2 Corinthians Verse 11

        Trials produce prayer on the part of God”s people 

        Romans 12:12

        Wisdom from the Lord 

        2 Corinthians Verse 12

        Two kinds of wisdom worldly and godly

        James 3:13-18

        James 1:2-8

        Boasting in the Lord 

        2 Corinthians Verses 13:14

        Boasting how That God worked it out for good

        Genesis 50:20

        “My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.”

        James 1:2-4 NKJV

        In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, (I Peter 1:6-7 NKJV)

        2 Corinthians 

        Chapter 11:24:33

        How to Get Through Trials 

        Those who thrive in spite of peril

        Who among us has suffered in this way 

        It’s so unbelievable Paul has to say he’s not lying 

        How it’s possible to get through trials 

        Stop thinking God is punishing you 

        Paul could have easily succumbed to this 

        Stop trying to take control 

        God is sovereign and numbers are days.

        God won’t keep us here longer than necessary 

        Romans 8:18

        Start trusting in God”s ways 

        God does what I would if I knew what He knew

        Start believing in God”s promises

        Having the Word of God prior to the peril of life 

        How he could have slept so soundly that night 

        3,000 promises in God”s Word for us

        Psalm 91:14-15

        2 Corinthians 

        Chapter 12:1-4

        Why We Go Through Trials 

        Part 1

        Trials enable us to see what God is showing us

        Verses 1-4

        Why Paul is speaking in the third person 

        When and where this happened to Paul 

        The speculation about what happened to him

        The vision came by way of a trial 

        Trials can become the catalyst for the vision 

        Visions received in life or death trials 

        Elijah actually wanted God to take his life 

        God reveals things to us in and through trials 

        What does God want you to see in the trial?

        2 Corinthians 

        Chapter 12:8-10

        Why We Go Through Trials 

        Part 3

        Trials enable us to see what God is showing us 

        Verses 1-4

        Trials protect us from pride and arrogance 

        Verses 5-7

        Trials keep us prayerfully dependent upon the Lord 

        Verses 8-10

        The why behind the what of our hardship 

        We don’t know what the thorn was?

        Why did Paul pray three times?

        Why wouldn’t God answer his prayer?

        Why did Paul need this thorn to remain?

        God”s ways are always higher than our ways

        God”s power is made perfect in weakness 

        God effortlessly does that which we cannot 

        2 Corinthians 

        Chapter 12:11-13

        Why We Go Through Trials 

        Part 4

        Trials enable us to see what God is showing us 

        Verses 1-4

        Trials protect us from pride and arrogance 

        Verses 5-7

        Trials keep us prayerfully dependent upon the Lord 

        Verses 8-10

        Trials produce perseverance in us 

        Verses 11-13

        The Corinthian church had really hurt Paul 

        He didn’t allow that hurt to cripple him

        Instead of commending they were criticizing 

        They didn’t defend Paul”s character 

        They had undue influence on them

        They were policing his every move 

        They delegitimize the Paul”s of this world 

        James 4:1-3

        Their influence bothered him more than beatings

        Preserving instead of accusing his accusers

        James 1:2-8

        2 Corinthians 

        Chapter 12:16-21

        Why We Go Through Trials 

        Part 6

        3 important truths concerning trials 

        Trials put us in step with the Spirit 

        Verses 16-18

        View through the lens of false accusations 

        Paul didn’t care about money in the ministry 

        How of the Holy Spirit 

        What of the Holy Word

        Romans 8:1,5

        Conviction of the Spirit so we walk in the Spirit 

        Trials can also be for the benefit of others 

        Verse 19

        2 Corinthians 11:23-28

        People watch how we deal with thorny trials 

        Trials give us compassion for others 

        Verses 20-21

        Paul really loved the Corinthian Christians 

        🐸FROG.        Fully Rely On God 

        1 Peter 4:12-14 New King James Version (NKJV)

        Suffering for God’s Glory

        12 Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; 13 but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy. 14 If you are [a]reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. [b]On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified.

        The notes in the post are out of order I’m sorry about that they are notes from a sermon Pastor JD Farag did on trials last year I think. We should never say why Lord don’t you love me of course He loves us He already proved it by sending Jesus to die on the cross for our sins that said nothing wrong with asking why but we might not like the answer.

        “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So then death is working in us, but life in you.”

        II Corinthians 4:7-12 NKJV

        Feel free to listen to the music I have posted for encouragement as well just type in the search box Song. Take heart these trials we go through are only temporary so we will be taken up in the Pre Tribulation Rapture to be with the Lord forever!

        “Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?””
        ‭‭John‬ ‭11:25-26‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

        See Psalm 27:13-14, Romans 15:13, Job 13:15, Psalms 119:50 Isaiah 6:1 Acts 14:21-22 and many others.

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        1. Dear Bother, thank you. I have been through many trials in my life and in part, I thought that God would protect me now in my later years. I know the this will increase even more my dependency to my Lord and I accept it even without understanding. I thought that maybe if I stay strong God is using me to bring my husband closer to Hm. I pray this is the purpose then, suffering is not so bad.

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    1. He signed up to the Christian 12 steps. I have faith he will get help and I do have peace now, I am sure all the heartfelt prayer from my friends’ have helped a lot. Thank you for caring.

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