Goodnight 😴 and good morning.

I just want to be brief and tell you I care about all if you. My heart is still heavy and brokenness is what I still feel. I need to give it all to God but I am flesh and as usual I am fighting this battle between flesh and spirit.

In the end God wins but, how long Lord, how long!

Morning & Evening e-sword Study Bible

February 13
“Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not. Beloved, now are we the sons of God.” — 1Jn_3:1,1Jn_3:2
“Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us.” Consider who we were, and what we feel ourselves to be even now when corruption is powerful in us, and you will wonder at our adoption. Yet we are called “the sons of God.” What a high relationship is that of a son, and what privileges it brings! What care and tenderness the son expects from his father, and what love the father feels towards the son! But all that, and more than that, we now have through Christ. As for the temporary drawback of suffering with the elder brother, this we accept as an honour: “Therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.” We are content to be unknown with him in his humiliation, for we are to be exalted with him. “Beloved, now are we the sons of God.” That is easy to read, but it is not so easy to feel. How is it with your heart this morning? Are you in the lowest depths of sorrow? Does corruption rise within your spirit, and grace seem like a poor spark trampled under foot? Does your faith almost fail you? Fear not, it is neither your graces nor feelings on which you are to live: you must live simply by faith on Christ. With all these things against us, now-in the very depths of our sorrow, wherever we may be-now, as much in the valley as on the mountain, “Beloved, now are we the sons of God.” “Ah, but,” you say, “see how I am arrayed! my graces are not bright; my righteousness does not shine with apparent glory.” But read the next: “It doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him.” The Holy Spirit shall purify our minds, and divine power shall refine our bodies, then shall we see him as he is.
“There is therefore now no condemnation.” — Rom_8:1
Come, my soul, think thou of this. Believing in Jesus, thou art actually and effectually cleared from guilt; thou art led out of thy prison. Thou art no more in fetters as a bond-slave; thou art delivered now from the bondage of the law; thou art freed from sin, and canst walk at large as a freeman, thy Saviour’s blood has procured thy full discharge. Thou hast a right now to approach thy Father’s throne. No flames of vengeance are there to scare thee now; no fiery sword; justice cannot smite the innocent. Thy disabilities are taken away: thou wast once unable to see thy Father’s face: thou canst see it now. Thou couldst not speak with him: but now thou hast access with boldness. Once there was a fear of hell upon thee; but thou hast no fear of it now, for how can there be punishment for the guiltless? He who believeth is not condemned, and cannot be punished. And more than all, the privileges thou mightst have enjoyed, if thou hadst never sinned, are thine now that thou art justified. All the blessings which thou wouldst have had if thou hadst kept the law, and more, are thine, because Christ has kept it for thee. All the love and the acceptance which perfect obedience could have obtained of God, belong to thee, because Christ was perfectly obedient on thy behalf, and hath imputed all his merits to thy account, that thou mightst be exceeding rich through him, who for thy sake became exceeding poor. Oh! how great the debt of love and gratitude thou owest to thy Saviour!
“A debtor to mercy alone,
Of covenant mercy I sing;
Nor fear with thy righteousness on,
My person and offerings to bring:
The terrors of law and of God,
With me can have nothing to do;
My Saviour’s obedience and blood
Hide all my transgressions from view.”


February 13
Entering Into This Place Called Grace
“Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Mat_6:33)
“Surely we should be getting close to the place called Grace,” someone said. “I mean, we’ve been traveling for sometime now and you told us at the start that it really wasn’t very far.”
“You’re right,” I replied. “I told you we would be taking a long journey to a place nearby. And that is exactly what we have done.”
First, you should know that there is a Great Kingdom which knows no boundaries; which is, in fact, ever-increasing simultaneously in all directions. One sacred poet described it as though a great vat of honey had been poured from above upon a vast flat surface, and now was spreading from the center ever outward in a slow and steady motion, enveloping all within it’s sweet presence.
It is The Kingdom of God.
And you should also know that within this Great Kingdom there is a Garden State – it is called the State of Mind, and it was miraculously renewed after the Lord’s victory in the Great War at Calvary. There He fought against the hordes of Hell and drew their Dark Prince, Lucifer, in the open field of battle where He crushed his head and brought his kingdom to naught. Now the Kingdom of God flourishes, and the renewed State of Mind thrives with godly commerce.
Before the renewal and the coming of the Kingdom, The State of Mind was a most corrupt place. Filled with filth and over-run with demons. A notorious gang called the Vain Imaginations roamed the streets, scratching vile graffiti on every wall and wrecking havoc in every place. The Courts made mockery of the Law, the Churches blasphemed the Lord, the Schools taught nonsense and called it Wisdom, and the People were like sloths hanging upside down in leafless trees.
Of the many historic revivals that have been told in stories from of old, none were so great as the mighty revival that transformed the State of Mind. After the Lord Christ rose victorious from the grave, a blast of glory ripped through the darkest corridors of Hell itself and severed in one mighty blow all the forged chains that enslaved Adam’s children to Sin and Death.
Then God Almighty unleashed His Spirit and His Word, both working together like a mighty rushing wind and a swift, roaring fire. All the filth and disease was in one day purged by the white hot flames of holiness. And when the smoke cleared — the State of Mind was gloriously renewed!
And then God set a Capitol City in the center of this renewed State; a City from which the rule of God’s love and mercy, goodness and faithfulness, favor and blessing extend to all throughout the ever-expanding Kingdom.
This Capitol City is the place called Grace.
We speak of entering it as though it were like any other city. But here’s where things are different. The truth is – we do not enter into Grace at all; rather, Grace enters into us!
Thus, wherever we may be – there Grace is also. Whatever we may encounter in our travels, Grace is there with us. In every situation and circumstance; in joy and in sorrow, in plenty and in want, in strength and in weakness; and, yes, in life or in death – Grace is there!
Grace is the empowering presence of God enabling you to be who God created you to be, and to do what He has called you to do – right where you are.